WOW...

I had an unusual experience today. It was not bad, it was rather good, actually! Here goes...

For the first time in a long time, I really enjoyed work today. I was totally excited about the material I was going over, totally excited about seeing and spending time with my kids, and just especially positive and encouraging. It can ONLY be the Holy Spirit pouring through me to those I teach and serve. WOW! It was so great, THANK YOU JESUS for such a great day!

On several occasions, I felt like I was having an out-of-body experience, and just marveling at the enthusiasm I had for the kids and especially for the math I was teaching. At one point today during tutoring, a student presented a problem I wasn't sure how to do. And then all of a sudden all of this math knowledge just came flooding out of me... I don't know where it came from, except Jesus!! SWEET!!! I mean, how cool is that?

I finally got a glimpse, a sweet taste, of what it is like to "walk in the Spirit" at work. I have been struggling with what that looks like, feels like, sounds like. I've wondered how I make that happen. But I DON'T make it happen. I can't contribute it to a fantastic quiet time this morning, or a wonderful experience at church last night or anything... just the Spirit's presence on me, all day. It was unbelievable.

I pray that we can all have that feeling at some point; of God just FLOWING through us and doing what we can't. Yay!

Vision

I just spent the weekend in Orlando, Florida with the leadership team from WinShape Camps getting ready for camp this summer. It was an extremely fun, extremely PRODUCTIVE weekend, as well as very exciting. I am SO PUMPED for camp right now, it's not even funny. I keep wishing that time would fast-forward and I could be at camp now... that I didn't have to leave camp early to fulfill my other obligations...
that camp was my job.......

The vision of WinShape Camps and Connect Ministries, the two groups partnering to make this camp a reality, is unreal. They painted such vivid pictures of camp and what they want to convey and put forth, that it's almost as if I had already seen it. I can picture in my mind what a day should look like. I can't wait to be there!! I love thinking about, preparing for, getting excited about, camp. And it makes me wonder -

If doing camp makes me this happy, this fired-up, would it be possible to do it for a living? I don't know what that looks like, or how it would happen, but I just know that this weekend and the prospect of getting ready for camp was the brightest spot in the past few months. I was doing something I enjoyed, without frustration. Aren't we supposed to do what we love as our job, if possible?

Only God knows what His plans are for me. He will reveal His plan in time. I guess I'm just restless, or over-thinking. But maybe..... maybe I'm not....